I just finished reading this in The Signature of Jesus by Brennan Manning:
I won’t give up, shut up, let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, preach up for the cause of Christ. I am a disciple of Jesus. I must go until he comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. And, when He comes for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me…my banner will be clear! (emphasis mine)
According to Mr. Manning, this was written by a young Zimbabwe Pastor and was found after his martyrdom. In light of this knowledge the reading of this changes…I realize that he did indeed work until He stopped him. And I believe that his banner was clear. Then I wonder. How does this translate to middle class America? To me?
I am in no danger of martyrdom (yet?) but I am called to die. But more than that…this isn’t about working as much and as hard as you can until you drop from exhaustion hoping that you have finally done enough. It is only true devotion and love for a Savior that causes one to lay down everything, even their life. It is about a heart so obsessed, so in love, so enamored with God and who He is that nothing He calls us to is too much. Rather we cry out ” What more can I do?” Not of fear but out of a deep desperate desire to please the One who calls. It is a coming to end of ourselves and offering all that we have, all that we are, without fear or resignation know that the Best has already been given, the need has already been met.
Oh Lord, may my banner be clear. May my devotion to You be so pervasive that You are written on every part of my life. Let me be so intimate with You that You will recognize me on sight and even say “Well done, Rachel”