Friday, July 11, 2008

The issue of trust......

I make lunch at 12:00 and dinner at 6:00. Dinner is not on the table at 5:30 or 5:00. It is not needed until 6:00. My children don't panic when they don't see dinner on the table before 6:00 and they don't come in to check to make sure I am making dinner. They trust me. They believe I will make dinner because I have always taken care of this need.

I have been praying for a need to be met for a couple of weeks now. It would be nice if it were taken care of early so that I can relax. I don't "need" the answer now. I "want" the answer now. I want reassurance that God hears me.

So as I wait, and wait, I become discouraged. Why? Because I am afraid that God won't come through for me. Unlike my children I do not assume that just because God has meet all my needs in the past, He will meet this one also. Dinner is not on the table so I assume it won't be. I begin to walk by sight and not by faith.

To make matters worse our favorite lamb was found dead this morning. He was such a friendly little guy and he delighted us to no end. It is a small thing in the grand scheme of things but today it is huge in my heart. I am tempted by this small thing to question the goodness and love of God.

To trust is to make the decision to behave as if you are taken care of, to believe that God is indeed acting on your behalf, in your best interests. To see the empty table and not fear that dinner won't be there.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Heb 11:1 ASV

Though the fig tree should not blossom and there be no fruit on the vines, though the field produce no food, though the flock should be cut off from the fold and there be no cattle in the stalls, Yet I will exult in the Lord, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation. The Lord is my strength, and He has made my feet like hinds' feet and make me walk on my high places. Habakkuk 2:17-19 ASV

Thursday, July 10, 2008

And when my heart is overwhelmed.....

Please lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

I am a bit discouraged. I am glad that fixing problems is not up to me, or fixing myself for that matter. The pizzeria has been busy (Thank you God) but we are short on employees as it is and have a key employee leaving in about 6 days. I have a pile of applications, a big pile, and not one good prospect. We need a trust worthy person who can deliver and manage shifts. Not one application looks promising....... It has occurred to me several times that God does not have deadlines. He knows when the right timing is and doesn't have to be reminded. We pray today for what we need tomorrow, hoping the answer comes today. It will come when it is needed and in between trust and faith must be applied.