Sorry we didn't get to talk long. You have been through a lot and I just wanted to take the time to share some things that helped me when life kept beating me down.
This song is called The Wilderness and it's by the Supertones (Am I showing my age?) It played in my car daily and loudly after Todd died. To this day it moves me in a way I can't explain, I hope you can listen to it and that it blesses you.
Just in case you don't get a chance to listen, here are the words:
The rain falls on the righteous and the wicked
Mine is not to reason why this is
In this I rest in this I find my refuge
That my thoughts and ways are not His
I spend my life on looking up the answers
It's rare that I can't find a reason why
But reasons fail at children without mothers
His plan is more than I can know
Have you ever held in doubt
What this life is all about
Have you questioned all these things
that seem important to us
Do you really wanna know
Or are you a little scared
You are afraid that God is not really
exactly what you'd have Him be
What should I hold to and what should I do
How do I know if anything's true
I'm somewhere in-between Canaan and Egypt
A place called the wilderness
Mine is not to reason why this is
In this I rest in this I find my refuge
That my thoughts and ways are not His
I spend my life on looking up the answers
It's rare that I can't find a reason why
But reasons fail at children without mothers
His plan is more than I can know
Have you ever held in doubt
What this life is all about
Have you questioned all these things
that seem important to us
Do you really wanna know
Or are you a little scared
You are afraid that God is not really
exactly what you'd have Him be
What should I hold to and what should I do
How do I know if anything's true
I'm somewhere in-between Canaan and Egypt
A place called the wilderness
I'm not one who always trusts their feelings
I don"t believe in what you'd call blind faith
But faith that you can do all that you promised
And you said it all works for good
It's safe to say I don't see the big picture
I can't see the forest for the trees
And if five hundred lives
Were mine to get to know
You all could be spent on just this
God do you really understand what it's like to be a man
Have You ever felt the weight of
loving all the things you Hate
Have You struggled have you worried
How can You sympathize?
I have spoken too soon put my hand over my mouth
I can't contend with You
Your ways are so much higher
And we pass through the fire that
Christ endured before us
When You were in the wilderness
I don"t believe in what you'd call blind faith
But faith that you can do all that you promised
And you said it all works for good
It's safe to say I don't see the big picture
I can't see the forest for the trees
And if five hundred lives
Were mine to get to know
You all could be spent on just this
God do you really understand what it's like to be a man
Have You ever felt the weight of
loving all the things you Hate
Have You struggled have you worried
How can You sympathize?
I have spoken too soon put my hand over my mouth
I can't contend with You
Your ways are so much higher
And we pass through the fire that
Christ endured before us
When You were in the wilderness
You know when John the Baptist was in jail he sent men to Jesus "Are you the one or do we look for another?" People disagree on this but I firmly believe John needed to hear Jesus say "Yes, I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. What you do for Me is not in vain. Your life has not been wasted and your hurts don't go unnoticed."
You have a lot on your plate: you are looking forward to some scary things and you have had a lot of disappointments. I guess all I am trying to say is that God is not afraid of the questions and I know that He has the answers for you, He had them for me.
Hey guys don't forget Brad and the guys serving our country! Please pray for them daily!
You have a lot on your plate: you are looking forward to some scary things and you have had a lot of disappointments. I guess all I am trying to say is that God is not afraid of the questions and I know that He has the answers for you, He had them for me.
Hey guys don't forget Brad and the guys serving our country! Please pray for them daily!
